How do we cope with change?
I lost myself in the midst of the latest chapter in my life and strayed away from my beginnings. I’ve been rewriting the script and starting from page 1. A sequel if you must and chapter one has just begun, the title is “Career Woman”.
Recent reflections have shown me how I coped with this change. I subconsciously detached from social media in order to focus on who I am to become.
I’m ready to create again, better and truer than ever before.
The time is now and I am dedicated, committed, and ready to enter this new chapter with my heart fully in it. In order to do that there needs to be a certain balance.
Commitment to self.
Intentional and mindful meanderings through life to keep the wheels progressing towards success. I say this because very recently I had a glimpse of losing all I have worked for.
Over the past 6 weeks, I have moved to a new town, started a new job, and radically changed my lifestyle.
During the first two weeks of training my instructor told our class “Let your friends and family know that for the next 6 months, they will rarely hear from you.” At the time I didn’t understand what she meant by that but now I do.
I think about all of the people who have touched my life and who have supported me along the way. How can I be better for them?
This job is super fun. I am literally building my own book of business under the company that I work for. This is going to sound contradictory but the job is fun because it’s challenging. I make cold calls trying to find customers to serve. If you have ever done or even talked with someone who has made cold calls then you know that this is not easy nor is it something that most people like to do. Lots of times the person on the other end of the phone is trained to shut me down. So when I get through to a client and I have a quality conversation with them, it literally makes my whole day better.
If it were easy, everyone would be doing it. I keep reminding myself of this because I am subjecting myself to a hailstorm of daily rejection. I would say I’m a pretty confident female but this job tests that confidence every single day.
And wanna know the crazy thing?
I asked for this.
I knew that I have rarely been rejected in my life and that overcoming rejection would be a great ally. A skill that I need to succeed in achieving my long-term goals.
Guess what else I asked for?
The skill to negotiate.
I’m going to be honest with you. I am a HUGE pushover. I like people and I want them to like me even more. Most of my life I let people push me around, decide where I’m going, and give up my needs to make them happy.
It’s a great quality, in moderation. I know no moderation which is why I knew negotiation would be a valuable skill to cultivate.
I also knew this job wasn’t going to be easy coming into it, and I welcomed the challenge by committing myself to give it my all. To maintain a healthy mindset through the tough times.
It will come.
Back to the slip-up.
Have you ever fallen in love (.. I should just stop here..) with something and neglected everything else?
I just did. And it only took 4 weeks for me to realize how important it is to hold on to who I was before this new adventure.
Because that girl.. that girl was stepping up to all of her fears and prowessing through life.
It dawned on me one evening last week. I was sitting outside journaling about my day and a lady in red caught my eye. She was slowly walking through her garden plucking vegetables from its belly. I suddenly remembered what it probably smelled like in there. The dirt, the feeling of pulling on the plants, the pride in watching them grow from seeds to big green lush beauties.
I miss it but I also realize that my love for plants and gardening will truly never go away.
I did this on purpose, I chose a job that wasn’t directly related to my passion for gardening. This choice came from a place of respect for my love of plants because I didn’t and still don’t want the pressure of earning an income stifle the joy that they give me. I will always be involved with them somehow. Even if I had to give away my indoor jungle to move, even if I had to tell all of my gardening clients that I wasn’t going to be available this summer, and even though this blog was born out of that love.
I’m still going to write for this blog, and I’m still going to create content because I need this creativity while I begin this new career. Creation is a vital part of happiness. Connecting with you and others is one of the best things about these online tools.
When we feel disconnected we get sad and lonely. I’ve been there in my life and I do NOT want to go back.
This past weekend I took time to appreciate the flowers with a very special human.
I reconnected with the roots that grounded me before this adventure up and took my breath away.
Life has this beautiful balancing act. The older I get the more I understand how I fit into this act and I still maybe even more than before have a deep desire to connect and help people.
I want to hear other stories of finding your way back to your roots, please share with me whether it’s an e-mail or a comment, I’m so interested and curious to see where we have similarities.
Thank you for reading, I’ve missed this. 🙂